From my Journal: June 29th, 2009
I was reading my journal tonight and felt so grateful that I had given myself this most intimate view into my past. I realized that it truly was a snap-shot of another time and reality. This one is especially poignant because it is from a time when I really was learning to create deliberately. For everyone who asks me, “How did you do it? How did you go from such dire circumstances, to the life you have now?” Well, it was hundreds of thousands of moments like these. Moments, after praying to know what I needed to do to make things better, and after listening and getting the answer, I wrote them not only in my journal, but in my heart, and then went out and did it…
6/29/09-
“One thing I really saw today was that I’m waiting for AMAZING to create… Waiting for the blessings to just- Show Up. Really waiting- knowing it’s almost here, gonna be here any second, maybe even today…as if its going to Self Create. I’ve been waiting for Heavenly Father to create my Amazing life…not taking responsibility to create it.
I see how I have said I want to crate amazing, extraordinary, effective, and powerfully, while wanting to do the bare minimum. Wanting to be able to follow any whim or desire that comes along. If I feel like going on face book, I go on Facebook. When I feel like making dinner, I make dinner. So free, yet not making progress. I see that.
Well, I’m excited to create what I really want. I recognize I’ve been hiding out, trying to get fulfilled through connections on fb and email. But I’m going to be fulfilled as I tap into my highest potential, fulfilling the measure of my creation, and partaking of the delicious fruit of feeling my higher purpose.
“Only the disciplined are truly free. The undisciplined are slaves to moods, appetites, and passions.”
-8th habit.
I know that I decide! Today is a new day, and I can make a change.”
No matter how successful you are, there is always more to create…here’s to being disciplined enough to really give our all, and experience the even more wonderful that is waiting!
